Healing from Trauma is a process…

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Moving slow and steady as each layer of darkness is exposed to His light, I’m no longer masking, covering up or remaining silent as I am learning to trust the process of true healing and the work it takes to reclaim my life.💗

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

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In times of difficulty, I am learning to lean into Faith instead of fear, trusting God as I grow closer to Him in the process.

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

Words that are silenced are lethal….

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Words that are silenced, are lethal secrets to destroy your soul. Speak your truth.

Many times it’s hard to remember the exact details of all the great memories that my Mom and I shared in my childhood. The confusion and pain of being sexually abused as a child, tried to overshadow the good times.

For so many years, I was afraid to tell anyone because I thought that they wouldn’t believe me. I blamed myself and carried the shame of those secrets.

When I was 40 years old, I told my Mom that I had been molested & raped as a teenager…and she believed me. She then asked me to forgive her for not protecting me.

I fell to the ground, as I weeped and screamed from the depths of my soul, every ounce of pain that had been confined was being released, as she quietly and lovingly held me.

She then, told me that she too was sexually abused as a child. This moment, yet painful was the beginning of much healing in our relationship.

~ denise marie

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

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For so long, I had fought against the lies that had kept me bound to feeling unworthy. But now I know the truth and learning to apply it daily as I continue to renew my mind and change my life according to His Truth.

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36

From the first touch…

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Self expression through writing has been a hobby & passion of mine since I was a little girl. In this picture, I was approximately 5 years old and was writing a poem. The following self expression explains why I am sitting there with a blank stare filled with so much sadness.

From the first touch, my life was forever changed. I could no longer see through the innocent sparkled filled eyes of a little girl, but rather the a darkened, blank stare that narrowly dilated my carefree view of this world. This false interpretation of safety and love from a man, quickly devoured my heart with lies of how my life was to be.

The depths of the overwhelming sadness that overcame me, could never be explained in order for you to understand how deep that violation not only hurt me, but changed me. All because of…that first touch.

The “first” touch led to many incidents of being molested by several people through the age of 12 and then raped at the age of 14. I held this secret until I was 40 years old. By finally sharing my story, it is helping me heal from the pain of the abuse.

Words That Are Silenced Are Lethal Secrets To Destroy You Soul, Speak Your Truth.

In April, I turn 50 years old, a half century! I want to encourage others that they too can be “no longer held captive by childhood secrets”. By safely sharing your secret with a trusted friend, family member, teacher, therapist or writing it out anonymously, this powerful act of courage, is the first step to being free from shame.

~ denise marie

“So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. – John 8:36